i've been feeling rather down on myself tonight.
watching the people i grew up with going around doing things with their lives, and struggling with what i have - or haven't - done. a lot of the reason why i dont excel at anything in particular is anxiety-related. the obsessive-compulsive pattern will bite u in the ass there i guess.
i dont know, i just had this moment where i was like "Shit, the only thing i really do is grow people." and then i was like "...and i'm really not even very successful at that."
and my heart broke a thousand times more.
so in order to help keep me from obsessing over the negative, i decided to make a list of things i AM good at
1. drinking a lot of vodka (or everclear) <--- i may be less skilled at this feat recently considering my lack of opportunities to, erm, practice
2. shopping
3. making lists
4. relating to others (theory of mind?)
5. forgiving
6. honesty
7. bluntness
8. analogies
9. trivia
10. dry sarcasm
11. morbid humor
12. fatalism
13. psychology (specifically, psychology of development)
14. making up recipes on the fly
15. breastfeeding (hey, i must be really good at it if my half-grown man-child is still going full throttle, right?)
maybe i'll think of more.
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